Since October, guest blogger and long-time friend Kristin Lennert Murra has been exploring several themes related to initiating dramatic changes, and finding ways to flourish while doing so.
In this final post, Kristin concludes her series and gifts us with a wonderful soundtrack that complements all her posts. I hope you have enjoyed this series, and the music and messages that go along with it. ~Sheree
Endings are always bittersweet for me. I can feel the promise of tremendous things to come, and yet I ache for what’s been lost. It doesn’t matter if it’s the end of a much deserved vacation, a job change, the gradual fading of a friendship, or even when my favorite mascara was discontinued. I have a long-standing and fierce inability to let go of things—and people—I love, and even typing about it makes the spaces behind my eyes and in my throat sting.
Many years ago, the song “Closing Time” by Semisonic was popular. While I modified the lyrics to tease my friend and colleague Carey, I also gravitated toward one particular line. (If, by now, you haven’t figured out my life-long affection for music and lyrics, well, I suppose I can write one more post about it.)
Every new beginning comes from some other beginning’s end.
Especially now, in this final post and as perhaps the most tumultuous year in my life draws to a close, I recite this line to myself daily, sometimes hourly. My naturally optimistic outlook knows that wonderful days are ahead, despite the small part of me that craves holding on tight to what is slipping through my fingers. Instead of hoarding what I can—things, mementos, email messages, tubes of mascara—I vow to appreciate the role these things play in my life, love them all the more for it, and gracefully let go and move on.
Earlier today, eager for something new and fresh, I opened one of those carefully hoarded tubes of mascara, only to find the brush completely dry. What was once my favorite mascara was wasted, hidden in a dark drawer when I should have been enjoying it. And as I looked at the brush, I realized that a different style suited me far better now. I put the tube in the trash bin with regret and am headed for the department store to choose a new one. It’s a good thing I don’t have any mascara on anyway; it would be smearing, because I know this new beginning is coming from some other beginning’s end.
And, of course, there’s a song about that.
I’ve created a Spotify playlist with all 12 theme songs from this series. Spotify is a free digital music streaming application with anywhere-access to millions of your (and my!) favorite songs. If you don’t have a Spotify account, all that’s needed is an email address. The link below directs you to the playlist. I hope you enjoy it as much as I’ve enjoyed writing this series and choosing these songs.
With warmest regards and thanks,